Hi Everyone!Yeah!!! All your votes worked!! LOVE IS LOVE debuted at number 5 in the top 10 last week on LOGO TV. (Yes, that's real TV!) Click here to see it listed in the Top 10 on LOGO! It has the chance to keep competing for the next 5 weeks so please keep voting! If you vote 100 times I will give you a FREE CD! Already Jennifer from Center Moriches, NY won a free CD and is working towards her 2nd! And others have informed me they are working up towards their first 100 votes to get that CD. Also, only 2 more gigs until 2010, so hope to see you there! xooxoxxoxo Athena >> Click here to friend me on Facebook
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Wow! LOVE IS LOVE debuted at number 5 in the top 10 on MTV'S LOGO TV! We have 5 more weeks of voting to keep it airing. If you vote 100 times, let me know and I will mail you a free autographed CD of your choice! |
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That's It!The main thing is THANK YOU for voting and please keep it up! And THANK YOU to George Lyter, director of LOVE IS LOVE (who did such an incredible job), Loris Diran & Orangia for donating outfits, Ruth Fernandez for make-up, Brian Jones, Terri & family for letting us film in their backyard, Francis Legge, Patrick Brady, Continuum Cycles (for lending us the tandem bike) SASi PR for promo and to all the people who went into the making and promotion of this video! And huge thanks to Lorraine Ferro, the co-writer (and back-up singer) of LOVE IS LOVE. Please keep voting and see you soon! xoxoxo Athena |
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
LOVE IS LOVE on TV! Free CDs, gigs & voting
Email from a guy I met in Seattle
Hi Athena,
The last time you came to Seattle, you drove down from Canada and only stopped when you came to a Seattle neighborhood called Ballard. You were scheduled to play at Mr. Spot's Chia House, where a guy who'd never heard of you before offered to help carry in your stuff. That was me. While we got the things from your car, we had an exchange that went something like this:
"You're lucky to find parking this close."
"I'm Athena, by the way. What did you say your name was?"
"Dave. Do you have a lot to carry?"
"No, I don't think so. Just a keyboard and some other things. It shouldn't be too much. Oh, my name's Athena. What was your name?"
"Dave. Had any sleep lately?"
"Oh yeah. I've been on the road since this morning. I did it all in one shot, straight down here with no stops. But it doesn't look like there's very many people showing up so far. I'm Athena, by the way. What was you're name?"
"Dave. You sure you're up for this?"
I didn't really get your story, even after you sang Love Is Love. And later, when you mentioned some venue you'd played at that was gay friendly, I still hadn't really put two and two together. But I finally watched your video, Love Is Love, and now I'm all straightened out about that. I'm slow that way.
Cute video. Really cute girl, too. Is that your significant other, or did you get to pick through portfolio shots for just the right girl? ;-)
Dave from Seattle
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Official Love is Love Video!
Vote LOVE IS LOVE on MTV's LOGO, Much Music, Gigs

Hi Everyone!Hiya, It has been such a fabulous month, with the success of the LOVE IS LOVE video and the LITTLE GIRL DREAMS CD release party. In order for LOVE IS LOVE to get aired on TV, I need your vote. I hate asking for votes. I know it's sort of annoying. But this one is a quick vote and it's SUPER important because this is my first chance to have LOVE IS LOVE premiered on real TV (MTV's LOGO TV, that is!) The CD release couldn't have been sweeter and I've got gigs coming up so read on! xoxox Athena P.S - Click here to see pictures from the CD release party.
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Upcoming Shows
GIRLS ROCK THE NIGHT @ Lantern Restaurant in Mahopac, NY Scarlet Fever Presents NIGHTMARE AT THE BLVD! (contemporary dance) in NYC Sunday, October 25th, 2009 | 7:00pm Showcase - Doors 6pm The Boulevard (199 Bowery at Spring Street) Performing during this amazing hot new young choreographer's show. Don't miss this absolutely fantastic event! Doing a 20 min set in between amazing contempary dance. Buy Tickets: $12.00 pre-sale and online / $15.00 at the door
"Rockin' for Farm Animals 2" at Kenny's Castaways in NYC International Pop Festival @ Kenny's Castaways in NYC >> For more info on Athena's Upcoming Gigs, click here
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Saturday, August 08, 2009
Last show in NY before West Coast, Interviews, & LA

Hi Everyone!Hey Everyone! I'm packing my things and getting ready for my West Coast tour. I've got one last show in NYC tonight, at DON'T TELL MAMA'S, with CHICKS ROCK THE NIGHT, before I fly off to the coast. I've done a couple of in-depth radio interviews (for CBS & "Artist's Exposed) and I've uploaded lots of photos from LA on my facebook profile. LA was fabulous and wonderful connections were made for the LIVING IN CAPTIVITY TV pilot. Yeah! More news as it unfolds... We've got the trailer for the LOVE IS LOVE video up online and the full version will be released very soon! Tell all your West Coast friends about my tour and see you at a show!! xoxox Athena PS - This photo is from the Red Carpet at the ITV Fest in LA last weekend. The outfit is courtesy of Orangia. >> Friend me on facebook. I'm addicted to it! Always uploading photos!
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West Coast & East Coast Tour!
Girls Rock the Night @ Don't Tell Mama's in NYC
Beginning's Workshop Egyptian Club in Portland, OR
La Familia Gallery in Seattle, WA Laughing Ladies Cafe in Seattle, WA
Women in the Woods @ Breitenbush Hot Springs in OR Southtown Street Party @ Intaba's Restaurant in Corvallis, OR Chicks with Pics @ the Railway Club in Vancouver, BC
College Street Cafe w/ Jenn Friedman in Clinton, NY Fianchetto Restaurant w/ Jenn Friedman in Utica, NY Utical Music Festival @ Stiefvator n Utica, NY Girls Rock the Night @ The Underscore in NYC GoGirls Fest NYC @ Otto's Shrunken Head in NYC >> For more info on shows, click here
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Friday, July 24, 2009
New York & West Coast Tour, LOVE IS LOVE, Fashion & more!

We just wrapped the shooting of the LOVE IS LOVE video and are now in post production. It was such crazy fun making the video! It will be released in early/mid August - I will let you know! I've got a big gig this Sunday in NYC @ Googie's above the Living Room @ 730pm so tell all your friends! Afterwards, we will all go eat cake together :) I have had a whirlwind of fun these past couple of weeks, including wearing dresses that costs THOUSANDS of dollars EACH for the video shoot, courtesy of Loris Diran & Orangia. Click here to watch the fun short video made at the Loris Diran fitting. I head to LA this Thursday to do a bunch of shows, including performing at the Red Carpet Event at the ITV Festival, where they are screening Living in Captivity (the TV show I wrote the theme song for). If you have friends in LA or the West Coast, send them out to my gigs! Hope you are enjoying the weather, and hope we can hang soon to eat cake!! xoxoxo Athena PS - This photo is a still from the LOVE IS LOVE video
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New York & West Coast Shows. More Shows booked! Googie's Lounge above The Living Room in NYC Performing at the Opening Gala of the ITV Festival in Los Angeles, CA Indiegrrl Night @ Cafe Muse in Los Angeles, CA
Screening of Living in Captivity @ the 4th Annual Independent TV Festival in LA Universal Bar & Grill in Los Angeles, CA Screening Of Living In Captivity @ The 4th Annual Independent TV Festival in LA Girls Rock the Night @ Don't Tell Mama's in NYC
Beginning's Workshop Egyptian Club in Portland, OR
La Familia Gallery in Seattle, WA Laughing Ladies Cafe in Seattle, WA Southtown Street Party @ Intaba's Restaurant in Corvallis, OR Chicks with Pics @ the Railway Club in Vancouver, BC >> For complete gig listings, click here
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That's it Folks!See you at a show! xoxox Athena |
Sunday, June 21, 2009
News, Video Contest, Internation Tours & More!

Hi Everyone!It sure is wet here in NYC. Wet leaves, wet sidewalks, wet skies, wet air. You'd think we were on the West Coast or something....Actually -- speaking of the West Coast -- I am finally planning a tour out West again! Also, I am holding an Amateur Video contest, have lots of gigs coming up (including singing the Canadian National Anthem in Saint John, NB on Canada Day), I'm learning the ukulele and more -- so read on! See you soon! Love, Athena P.S. - yes, these are pictures of me as a little girl... >> Check out my new My Space page!! Totally new design & pics!
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Amateur Video Contest! Easy to win!I am holding an amateur video contest. You don't have to have any experience at all. Most people can, in the least, win a free CD. The grand prize winner gets $100 and a chance to collaborate with me on a video. It could be as simple as a slideshow. Really. If you have never used an editing program - this is your chance to figure it out!HOW TO ENTER 1. Choose one of my songs. Email me at info@athenareich.com & I will email you the mp3 of your choice. 2. Create a video to that song. It can be a slideshow, an animation, claymation, a simple video... you could use pictures from my website, or pictures of your family.. you could make it abstract, political, sentimental... anything goes. 3. Be sure to credit me for the song (and my website) somewhere in the video. 4. Post the video on YouTube. If you get 75 of your friends to watch it, I will mail you a free CD of your choice! (Yes, you could cheat and watch it 75 times yourself, but who would cheat an Indie Artist? So I am using the trust method) 5. The grand prize winning video gets at least 200 views on YouTube and will be selected based on originality, artistry, and content. That's it! See how easy it is to win at least a free CD!? Go for it!! Let me know if you have any questions! Email me your song choice! Click on the image below to watch the slideshow video I made, to the tune of LITTLE GIRL DREAMS. It's a tribute to all those who helped in the making of the album.
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I am currently booking a West Coast tour from Aug. 17th to Aug. 31st. I want to play Oregon, Washington, Vancouver Islands, Vancouver etc. If you live in this area and would like to host a house concern, share a gig with me, give me an idea for a venue/person/press to contact, please email me by replying to this mailer. |
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Phew! I don't know how this mailer got so long. It's been a fun one! See you out there folks! I'm looking forward to the video contest & the tours! |
Friday, May 29, 2009
New Tribute Video to the Making of Little Girl Dreams!
This video is a tribute to all the people who helped make my 5th album, LITTLE GIRL DREAMS, a reality. Listen to more Athena music at http://itunes.com/athenareich or http://www.cdbaby.com/athenareich5 or http://www.AthenaReich.com. Thank you to everyone! This song, "Little Girl Dreams", is written by Athena Reich and produced by Cynthia Daniels.
THANK YOU TO:
Cynthia Daniels (producer, engineer, electronic drums & synths)
Lorraine Ferro (songwriting/vocal coach & co-writer for LOVE IS LOVE & MR. FLY, and select back-ground vocals)
Greg Pliska (string arrangements for Bones & Great Divide)
John Grew & Ariosto Arato (assistant engineers)
Alan Silverman (mastering)
Christopher North (stand-up bass & harmonica)
Johnny Blood (guitars)
Warren Odze (acoustic drums)
Pete Levin (organ)
Hiroko Taguchi (violin)
Una Tone (violin)
Marya Columbia (viola)
Mary Woote (violin)
Denise Grant (photography)
Aaron Reynods (piano photos)
Sergio Sandino (graphic design)
AND ALSO THANKS TO: mom & don for endless support, lorraine ferro for explosive inspiration, neil semer for the waves, maggie maes for hooray!, cynthia daniels for the moon, my therapist for the sky, my fans for the their wings, my friends for the stars, and most importantly, annica...for everyday support, love and care of my heart.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Awesome Show @ Googie's!





Above are pictures of me, Glenn Firester on drums & chromatic harmonica & Annica Schroeder on vocals.
I had such a great time performing at Googie's above the Living Room the other night. Thank you to all who came out. You gave us such wonderful energy!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Athena on the Food Network!
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Some Pics from the last show at Caffe Vivaldi
Performing at Caffe Vivaldi a few weeks ago with Amy Emerman and friends was an absolute blast. Thanks so much to my friends and fans who came out. It was one of those magical beautiful nights (except for the drunk guy who yelled at me that he didn't like my music at all... but then later wanted to buy a CD... go figure!) LOL You gotta love NY!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Free t-shirts if you buy a CD (SPRING SALE!)
Spring CD sale! I've got some Sirens Wild Ride t-shirts left over from touring and some CDs I'd like to move out of my little Manhattan closet so I am offering a late March/early April special. Only $12 (includes shipping) for any of my first 4 CDs (a sly sardonic grin, Athena Under Attack, Stranger Things Have Happened, Stories from the Road) and only $14 (includes shipping) for my newest CD, LITTLE GIRL DREAMS. For any sale of 1 or more CD you will get a free SIRENS WILD RIDE t-shirt!
To listen to clips from all 5 of my CDs, click here.
This deal is directly through me only, so if you are interested, please send an email to CDsAndShirts@athenareich.com.
If you buy more than 1 CD, I will give you even more of a deal. (For example, $12 for 1, $20 for 2 etc)
All t-shirts are large so they are perfect if you are a goddess or bear or, if you are a pixie like me, they are fun if you cut out the neck and wear as PJ's. CDs & Shirts also
Friday, January 16, 2009
It was so awesome performing with Janeane Garofalo & more at TAKE BACK THE CITY

Performing last Wed at Take Back the City (in support of Yetta Kurland for City Council) was so awesome. What a great night!! Thanks to everyone who came out. What a blast. I am in awe of Nellie. It was so awesome getting to hang with Janeane. And Yetta will make an excellent member of city council, working for the rights of all peoples (queer, underprivileged etc!).
Thank you New York!!
Performing with Janeane Garofalo, Murray Hill, Nellie McKay, TV show & more!
I am so psyched to be performing this Wednesday with Janeane Garofalo, Nellie McKay, the Trachtenburg Family Slideshow Players & more! My CD, LITTLE GIRL DREAMS is now available online, and you can now watch the full LIVING IN CAPTIVITY TV pilot episode online (complete with my theme song)! |
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Big congrats to my student Natalya Rudakova for her role in Transporter 3! She is THE CHICK in Transporter 3! The girl! The hot red head opposite Jason Statham! |
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If you are in midtown, check out the art show at the Art Students League of New York. This is my first visual arts show and will feature a couple of my oil paintings and tons of work by some incredible talent. The opening party is Monday January 12th from 5pm-830pm. Come! I'll be there! The show runs for 2 weeks. |
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Thursday, January 08, 2009
New Headshots!!
I got new headshots while in Toronto over the holidays. I just love working with Denise Grant! She is amazing! Still sorting through them but here are a few sneaky peaks...
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Picture from performing at SASS a few months ago
I had such a great time performing at SASS this fall. It was about my 3rd or 4th time performing at SASS (sexual abuse survivor's show) and I always have an incredible and moving time. The audience was totally awesome. The art work was moving and inspirational. I love performing in the context of SASS. Very touching and community building
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Selling Art at my gigs now!!

This is how my new merch table looks - it so fun to sell art now at my gigs!!!
Click here to see oil pastels for sale!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Wow!! So much is happening!!!

Wow!! I just shot an Advil commercial yesterday where I got to sing my song LITTLE GIRL DREAMS!! And I will be appearing on the FOOD NETWORK this month... and the best part is -- MY CD IS COMING OUT BEFORE XMAS!!!
yes! it's true!! LITTLE GIRL DREAMS will be out in a few months. I am so excited and happy and proud!
and right now I am on tour in Highland Park, NJ. Annica and I just played a sweet show last night called OUT OF THE BOX. It was in a church basement and was such a warm and tight community scene. It was so lovely to be there. Reminded me of college and the warmth and safe creativity you can only have in small towns. It was so lovely. HUGE thanks to Pandora Scooter & Steve for organizing it!!
Sooo fun to perform with Annica and to finally have a touring partner I just LOVE spending time with. Touring with your girlfriend is THE best!!
Tonight we perform at the Pride Center Fundraiser @ THE DEN in Highland Park, NJ @ 7pm. See you there! So freakin psyched!
Right now I am killing time while Annica sleeps in. I'm no good at sleeping in. LOL
But my friggin' album is going to be released SO SOON! AND I LOOOVE IT!!! :) :) :)
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Advice on How to be a Reality TV Star

How to be a star.
(Advice from the people at NFGTV who produced the Food Network Show)
Here’s what you need to know if you want to look awesome on television.
- Don’t hold back. Nobody wants to look bad on television so a lot of people try to be careful about what they say. Ironically, this just makes you seem boring. Think of this like trying to hit a home run… You can’t just bunt the ball if you want to hit it out of the park, you have to swing with everything you have. Of course, when you do this, you are going to strike a lot, but that’s no problem because we edit the strikes out. If you strike twenty times and then hit a home run, we are going to use the home run and you’ll look great. If you bunt twenty times, we’ll only be able to show you bunting and you’ll look like a pussy. Don’t sweat the mistakes – go for the gusto!
- Talk it through. One thing you’ll notice if you watch Stefan’s demonstration performance carefully is that he is being the host of his own show. He’s asking questions that will help the audience understand what’s going on. He asks the chef for a list of crepe ingredients, so that people at home will learn while he is learning. There’s an old rule in television: tell people what they are about to see, show it to them, tell them what they just saw. So instead of grimly going from place to place in silent concentration, be sure to tell us what you are about to do, talk to us while you are doing it, then tell us what you just did.
- Concentrate. You should come prepared to have a lot of fun, but also to work because being a star takes a lot of energy. If you do it right you’ll be exhausted by the end of day. You have to listen carefully to other people and you have to answer clearly and with energy. It’s about being present in the moment. Very zen.
Monday, November 03, 2008
I really made a difference yesterday!!
It was so energizing! It felt like the 60s! (And I wasn't even born then, but I always wished I was!!).
Honestly, I haven't been very politically active since Bush has been in office. But after hearing Michelle Obama speak Friday night, I was moved to tears. The apathy melted away, and I thought, "You know, things might really change for the good around here. Whether he wins or not, I want to be able to say I did my best to get him elected." After what happened to Kerry & Gore, we can't take the chance of just scraping by. We need to win by a large percentage so the polls can’t be tampered with!
So whether you live in the
If you are in NYC, email me and I can get you in touch with some local trips and organizations for this weekend. I'm thinking of organizing a phone calling party... not sure yet.. If you are outside of NYC, click the link below!
Really, yesterday was so empowering, uplifting and fun!
Love,
Athena

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The most meaningful part of campaigning, for me, was the look in their eyes as they answered their doors. "What are these 2 white girls doing on my porch?", they seemed to sneer. And we would smile and say we are with the Obama campaign and their whole demeanor would shift. They became warm and grateful... pleased to see white folks working for the same goals and concerns that they have. It really made me feel that Obama would make some real change in this country by easing racial tension, and bringing people of all races & classes together. Numerous times, by the end of the conversation, we were sincerely thanked for the work we were doing to help get Obama into office. This is a picture of one of the houses we canvassed at.
I'm going to be on the FOOD NETWORK!

I was going to an open call a couple of weeks ago in NYC and walked by another audition. I asked what they were auditioning for and they told me it was for a reality cooking/dating show on the Food Network. I asked if I could audition, even though I don't have an appointment and they said sure! And I got chosen! We are filming next weekend. I have only $11.57 and 2 hours to cook something scrumptious, to impress a date, (and the meal is chosen by a date) in the East Village, with no kitchen or resources. It's a really hilarious new show! I'll let you know when it airs! Wish me luck. I am competing against another cook!
AUDITIONING AUDITIONING AUDITIONING
I am a mad audition woman. I go to open calls. I go to auditions my agent sets up. I get call backs, great feedback.. I am so close so close so exhausted so despaired... so on a high so close so close... don't quit... so close.. call backs, great feedbacks... oh oh then the terrible audition... the yucky ones.. but then you get a call back for the ones you think you bombed... it's maddening maddening... all i can control is my make-up my make-up I look pretty.. i am prepared... i tell my story my story in each audition i tell my audition... woody allen says 90% of life is showing up. here i am here i am i'm here i am...
so many people so much talent... they give you looks of death they fear they judge they smile fakely.. we are fighting fighting competing for that job... oh wait - a true smile a true friendly look - no girl - get outta my way... my job my job... this is exhausting...
my 'audition book'. thick... filled with music... prepare prepare prepare.. don't give up... find the joy the joy the joy... it's a matter of time.. it's playing with numbers.. it's luck... luck.. put yourself in a position where luck can happen to you luck can happen...
Love Sucks Stuff
THE GUTTERSNIPES! WE ROCK!
(LEFT TO RIGHT - ATHENA REICH, REBECCA HART, CARYN HAVLIK & HEATHER ROBB)
THE CAST
ON STAGE - THE GUTTERSNIPES
THE MOLOTOVS - LIVE
I AM SO PUNK
ME & HEATHER
FAMILY & FRIENDS AFTER THE SHOWWE GOT AMAZING REVIEWS & SOLD OUT SHOWS. PICK US UP BABY PICK US UP! I WANNA GO TO BROADWAY!!! :) xoxoxox
Just got cast in LOVE SUCKS: a Punk Rock Musical

Hey!
Auditions really work!
I got an audition. Then a call back. Then another call back. Then boom!
Got cast in this awesome show based on Shakespeare's Love's Labours Lost set in 1970's New York Punk Rock Scene.
I have a principal role & will be acting/singing/guitar-ing ;)
It was cast by Calleri Casting - a very reputable casting house for theatre/film/TV in NYC.
The director is Andy Goldberg and his work has been nominated for a Drama Desk & Obbie Awards. He was super sweet during the auditions. A real actor's actor.
I am so excited! Rehearsals start Wednesday.
The show, LOVE SUCKS, is part of the very reputable New York Musical Theater Festival.
More soon!
The Best Shows are the Shows you Get Without an Audition
What a reward, for an actor, to get an email or phone call inviting you to do a show you never auditioned for. What a relief, and compliment.
I have been performing in a show called "Fresh Talent" for the past 3 years. It's a variety show of musical theater performers, dancers and singer/songwriters and we show tour buses of high school students from the Midwest what it's like to be a working actor in New York City. It's a good regular gig with decent pay, all the performers & directors involved are ridiculously talented (as is usual for New York City). Marc Parees, who's been the director of the program for the past few years, is also involved in numerous film & theater projects in the city. He's part of a company called Genesius Theatre Group. He contacted me to offer me a role in an upcoming production of Suzan-Lori Parks' 365 Days/Plays to be performed in the lobby of the Vivian Beaumont Center @ Lincoln Center and on stage at the Public Theater.
I was psyched as I have always held a special respect for Marc's work. There is something vulnerable and open-minded about his methods.
To make a long story short, it was an incredible cast, and we got to work with an extremely talented pool of directors. It was a beautiful feeling to perform at Lincoln Center. Performing at the Public was more of a chaotic experience as we had to share the stage with 20 other companies - but all in all it was a bonding experience with the cast, and a beautiful creative experience. It reminded me of why, at age 9, I made a firm commitment to become an actress; nothing compares to the intimacy of working creatively with a group of people. I joined the theater to find family, community, and meaningful work and expression.
ENJOY THESE PIX (ps - sorry I didn't get a pix of everyone, and sorry for any misspelled names. Let me know!)
Auditions Auditions Auditions
But... that's no way to think...
I am doing well by focusing on the fact that each of us is unique, and we all have a place in the world. It's not my job to judge. Just my job to go in there and be myself, and be true to the text or lyrics, and try to relax and be myself.
Been getting lots of positive responses.. and call backs...
Will keep ya posted...
Getting into character in the women's bathroom beforehand...
Getting into character in the women's bathroom at the Actor's Equity Building right before auditioning for "25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee: The Musical" on Broadway. I was auditioning for Loggaine - the girl with 2 Dads who's whole sense of self is based on winning (well - all their precious egos are balancing on a wire). She has a lisp and is completely uptight.I sang "Defying Gravity" from Wicked with a Lisp, and I could sense I really amused the casting director.
Beforehand, some of the girls were in the change room getting ready, applying make-up, curling hair, and gabbing about auditions and complaining about the heat. It felt timeless. Like Carol Burnett could have been there, waiting in the wings for her big break, sharing beauty tips and exchanging inside info into upcoming auditions.
Girls in the change room getting ready and talking shop.
Timeless.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Opening Party of Sundays in the City @ Nation
Caffe Vivaldi Gig - Feb 5th
I had a BLAST performing at Caffe Vivaldi on Feb. 5 (2008). What an incredible turn out!! Thank you to all who came! Really! It was beautiful and magical and wonderful. Kristen Nolan did an excellent job singing with me. Francine Kay was amazing and inspiring and so freakin' talented... And it was just one of those magical gigs where I really felt connected to the crowd. THANK YOU!!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
MO PITKIN'S w. Manson Family Singers
Thank you all!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Fresh Talent - backstage
Rapture Cafe Birthday Bash!

This was one of the funnest gigs ever! It was my birthday celebration so a group of us started the evening off at the Tsampa Tibetan Restaurant in the East Village. It was yum! I had the Tsampa Salmon with apple juice sauce!
Then we went to the Rapture Cafe which is a darling new little East Village Venue. Kerry Politzer did an amazing set, as usual. I went next and was grumpy about the pedal which wasn't working, but no one seemed to mind too much and I just sang my heart out to compensate. And I had a freakin' blast cause the place was packed with my friends! Houston Bernard did a rockin' set afterwards, although I think he was mad at me for being upset about the pedal not working - but I couldn't totally read him so maybe it was fine.
But overal it was a highlight of my life. I am surrounded by people I love who love me and I love making music and people loved hearing it and what else can I ask for at this moment in time? I love my life right now!
Love,
Athena
Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Here's a picture of me from when I was 6 years old! My family forgot it was picture day, and it was my FIRST DAY OF BROWNIE'S (I was so excited and proud to be a part of something so big-girl) and so i ended up in my friggin' Brownie uniform on Picture Day. But I ended up hating brownies when I soon realized it was all a consiracy to train us to be well-behaved little ladies. All we did was dance around this stupid mushroom (what? were they aware of that bizarre drug metaphor at all??) and get badges for doing good deeds and acting like ladies. Even at that age - that kind of gender manipulation made me want to BARF!
OK - now for some info on GIGS!!!
Ah blogging! I am so behind!
Hi everybody!
So sorry I am so behind! But when I have a great gig, I have no urge to blog! Only when I get bundled up into a neurotic mess do I blog myself to exhaustion to induce sleep.
But I have had some wonderful shows lately - at Mo Pitkin's - OH MY GOD - that show was a beautiful thing. The place was PACKED!
And I stopped by the Outmusic Open Mic and played a song there and reconnected with an incredibly vibrant community, hosted by singer/songwriter extraordinaire Amy Clarke.
And I'm sure there have been others - but it's all a blur now my friend..
Working hard on writing music and prepping for my 5th CD with grammy/emmy winner CYNTHIA DANIELS. Yippee!!
Also - I will be moving June 1st to Chelsea!! Can I afford it? Ah who cares! I'm gonna looove it!!
I am putting aton of energy into acting and auditions lately and am getting a lot of call backs and awesome feedback -yipee! So I will begin a new 'auditioning in NY' blog asap! Watch for that!
Talk soon I promise this time!!
Athena
Sunday, April 08, 2007
What a wonderful wonderful night. Oh and they had a piano there! And yummy free jumbalaya. And I felt appreciated appreciated. Thank you Q-Nite. And my favorite people to play for are queers and survivors. And that night some college kids loved it so much that they booked me a gig at their college. Love when that happens. And it's happening more and more...

Grumpy grumpy Athena all day.
Lonely lonely Athena coming back from Toronto to empty empty NY.
passive agressive Athena showing up late and lonely and grump grump grump.
charming charming Athena who makes audience laugh giggle smile.
Laugh giggle smiles make Athena laugh love twinkle
happy happy Athena talking communicating sharing to people people people
oh yeah! me likes me music. i forgot.
oh yeah! i'm good at this watch it soar soar soar
look at people laugh
look at them listen
compliments sell cds talk connect flirt
drive home blog and sleep satisfied
happy happy happy athena
all in a day
oh oh sometimes me exhaust meself me is so so funny ha ha

And then afterwards... neurosis sets in. competitive insanity sets in.... 'maybe i should make my music more accessible.. more commercial.. more familiar.. why am i such a freak? why is my music such a freak.." Felt like I was sleeping on a slab of ice that night... drove like a maniac back to the big apple. talked on the phone and cried...
Calmed down later that night.. Spoke with my manager... God I am ridiculous how worked up I get. But it's true that my music isn't easy listening.. Maybe if I speak a little bit about why I chose to create a unique and haunting chord progression, why I created an 'out' bridge... if I let people in to my musical process a bit more on stage (not just the lyrical process), maybe it'll help improve communication and accessibility. And for big gigs I will experiment with a drummer and bass and see how that goes.
Feeling much more positive about everything now. I love my music. I love my loyal fans who lift me up more than they can ever believe. I will continue, in subtle ways, to reach out and communicate... always you can be more and more clear...
Friday, December 22, 2006
me & Downtown Burlesque performer "Darlinda Just Darlinda" at "Jew They Know it's Christmas" at The Delancey.OK, I'm going to try to start blogging again.. maybe...
I somehow wanted to hide away and snuggle inside a little privacy for a bit.. so we'll see how this goes..
I am really excited 'cause a ton of wonderful career things have happened for me lately, including getting emmy/grammy winner Cynthia Daniels as my new producer for my upcoming album, getting a gig as a host for "Girls on Girls" with Here! TV, getting a new acting manager (MKM) and more!
Last night I performed at "Jew know it's Christmas" at The Delancey, produced by awesome Downtown curator Earl Dax. The crowd was pretty crappy in that they didn't laugh much, and were much more into their loud conversations than actually watching a show. But, it was really fun 'cause tons of people I knew were performing that night. It was one of those nights that made me feel glad to be in NY, that I am actually connected to a web - to a community of amazing artists.
But I had dreams that night - lousy dreams about performing in front of lousy crowds.. gee.. i wonder what that could be about. Man.. I even wrote a Jew-Xmas song just for that night, based on the true story of why the Jewish side of my family celebrates Xmas.
1. Oh Christmas Tree, Oh Christmas Tree
How proudly you convert the jews
Oh Christmas Tree, Oh Christmas Tree
Because of you, I'm a self-hating jew
My Bubby begged at the age of 10
for a Tannenbaum, like all her friends
Oh Christmas Tree, Oh Christmas Tree
You assimilate my family
2. Oh Tannenbaum, Oh Tannenbaum
Historically, you're a Pagan tree
Oh Tannenbaum, Oh Tannenbaum
Used by German tribes for human sacrifice
Then Romans came and used your leaves
as a conversion tool for Christianity
Oh Christmas tree, Oh Christmas tree
You assimilate my family
I thought it was funny. So did my mother and closest friends... But not the dorky Jews at the Delancey last night. It was a lot of middle aged men looking for a nice Jewish girl to fuck that night..
Oh my Gosh - did I say that? I don't really mean it.. I'm just having fun..
OK, I mean it... I just don't want to get in trouble. But I don't feel as bitter about it as I sound. There were some nice people there that night. Some nice, really loud, drunken middle age men who didn't listen to the song I wrote just for them... Shit I'm sounding bitter again.. I didn't mean to go there AGAIN. LOL
Anyways, it's at times like these that I feel really happy to have the gig with Here! TV. Even if I have a lousy show in some small bar in NY, I know that the next day I can go on air and have an audience of tens of thousands with Here! Networks. And my acting manager is really great about working hard for me. So I know great things are coming...
And some juicy things are maybe happening in my love life.. But I won't go into that cause it's waaay too soon.
I plan on doing some serious relaxing this weekend. You know.. naps.. TV... food.. that kind of stuff. I need a renewal so I can feel creatively inspired to work on my album in the new year.
Happy Holidays everyone!
Love,
Athena
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
I'm feeling in the roll of things in NYC. Getting more students, running from rehearsal to show, sleeping EVERY NIGHT IN MY OWN BED! Last night I performed at East of Eighth with the amazing drag supahstah Hedda Lettuce and sweet jew-zen Josh Zuckerman. It was wonderful. And, they fed me. Which I love. I'm so easy to please. Just feed me. Well. And I'm glowing and floating near the ceiling.
Tonight I was wined and dined as well, with the show Fresh Talent, which is starting a new season again. I love being in the show for the 2nd year, as everyone is getting more comfortable and friendly with another.
Yeah!!!
Going to watch Sex and the City now.
Goodnight.
:) athena
I'm feeling in the roll of things in NYC. Getting more students, running from rehearsal to show, sleeping EVERY NIGHT IN MY OWN BED! Last night I performed at East of Eighth with the amazing drag supahstah Hedda Lettuce and sweet jew-zen Josh Zuckerman. It was wonderful. And, they fed me. Which I love. I'm so easy to please. Just feed me. Well. And I'm glowing and floating near the ceiling.
Tonight I was wined and dined as well, with the show Fresh Talent, which is starting a new season again. I love being in the show for the 2nd year, as everyone is getting more comfortable and friendly with another.
Yeah!!!
Going to watch Sex and the City now.
Goodnight.
:) athena
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
I MODERATED THIS AWESOME EVENT
at the NY Public Library last weekend.
It was gorgeous. Community.
It honored every day heroes
the every wars
we combat
as LGBT people
in our work
family
community
media
...
I moderated "Just As We Are", a photography exhibit by Charlie T.
I met wonderful movers & shakers in the LGBT people.
It felt like my heart got a massage.
I am not alone in my every day struggles.
I am part of a dynamic, exciting, and bursting community.
OH YES PEOPLE
THIS IS OUR TIME!
GALAPAGOS
Last night at Galapagos was wonderful. Large crowd. Artsy Brooklynites. Real piano. I wore my tutu and silver ripped top. I sang and the mic responded. I gave it my all. Cute girls were everywhere. Stylish fags laughed loudly over martini mixes and DJ glitches. Earl Dax and I were stopped by the police. "Liscense and ID" they said, as I was just about to start the ignition and give Earl a lift to Metropolitan. "Why?" challenged Earl. "Routine check. There's been a lot of car break-ins". Earl got in a huff and started directly challenging the officers. He was totally wasted and spoke very loudly. I prayed to the Goddess that we wouldn't get gay bashed, black bashed (oh wait, we're not black..phew) or charged with some stupid ticket. They backed down. Earl and I were both surprised they didn't take the bait Earl tossed at them. He was pissed that they stopped us. We were lucky nothing came of it.
So tired all day tomorrow.
Trouble sleeping lately.
Hopefully tonight I'll remember how to sink into the lady...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Over New Years weekend, the girls and I went on tour to Washington DC where we played to sold out audiences. Burlesque, comedy, & music to satisfy ever gay boy, straight guy, bull dyke & old jewish couple. It was fabulous.
After the show with some friends, cast members, & audience.
We all passed out in the car from exhaustion, but luckily, Mr. Lucky took over.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
I have been going crazy since I've gotten back. It's like having post-traumatic tour disorder or something. It is so difficult to try to re-enter a life that you left behind 3 months ago. It is so difficult to try to feel at home in a city that you've been touring away from for the past 2 years.
It will all get easier with time.
But everyday is a different adventure on the roller coaster of extreme emotion.
I feel like I've lost all memory of what just took place, and I have no idea what to do next, who I am, or what my credentials are.
but tonight I am remembering.
I am remembering because i went to a RENT audition today. I waited for 6 hours only to get type cast out. (That means that you all stand in a line like cattle, or like jews before the execution, and if they call you get to sing 8 bars). Well, they didn't call my name. But they did call the names of very tall and model-looking women around me. I think I am not thin enough. And I never did learn how to walk in high heels. Honestly, I think I am 'too RENT' for RENT!
A friend admiringly told me tonight that I am 'too much for mere mortals'. This was in the context of him taking my pictures and getting a huge kick out of the emotional intensity. Sometimes I feel that my art and personality overwhelm people. That I seem to live, so comfortably, in a world so intense, deep and creative that it is frightening to those afraid to face the dark witch.
Anyways, after the audition, all I wanted to do was create beautiful music on my piano, eat ice cream and pancakes and LIVE LIFE! F*#k the evil commercialism that is committing genocide on our art. I want to live, to be real, to be healthy, to create, to stimilate, to provoke, and to breathe my deepest foreshadows into the crevices of my art. F*#k Compromise! What the f*#k is life for!!??
One great thing has happened lately, is that I was asked to perform on the Joey Reynolds show on WOR 710. Here's a picture of me with Joey, the owner of Don't Tell Mama's, Myra (who knows many bookers in NY), and some guy who made us sandwiches. (no- just kidding - he's this awesome comedian). It was an awesome show. They freaked over me. Loved me so incredibly much. They are all so fun to crack jokes with. It was so much fun!
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Oh my goodness. I am back home. it is like a slow motion syrupy dream. What a beautiful home I have. How still it is here. How adult it all seems. I've been crashing on 22 year old's couches for the past 3 months. I've been like a teenager. And suddenly, I am an adult with a beautiful apartment, but no means to support it. I need to breathe deeply. This is New York. There is a plethora of jobs out here.
But I am leaving for Toronto and Berlin soon. Why? I don't feel like it anymore.
Athena

The bass player was flirtin pretty hard with me. A cute charmin' drunkin' blue grass boy. Man. Welcome to the south Athena. It's like being in another country! Cowboys n' cowgirls breaking wild & free from strict codes. Then kneeling on the church on Sunday, cleansing their hearts of mama bread guilt.
But we had a small, yet devoted group of art-lovers at the show. And I got some honest and loving Southern hospitality. And I probably gained 5 pounds in the south. But I'm not supposed to care about that right? As a feminist? I guess I'll go to the radical church this Sunday, and pray for forgiveness of my indulgent patricarchal sins.
But honestly, the South, overal, was difficult for me. I am such a contraversy there. There are always people who are incredibly loyal and loving. But there are always people who HATE me too! I think they think I am the anti-christ or something. I felt like calling out, "God gave us a clit for a reason people! Don't blame me for wanting to 'F#ck All Day!". LOL
OK. Now I am in the Bible Belt. How many times do I have to say it? "I'M SORRY I'M NOT BLUE GRASS!" Man. These people like their Blue Grass. Even some of the lesbians hated me in Knoxville. But these dykes didn't hate me. Or at least they said they didn't. I can never be too sure in the South. What are they REALLY thinking? What the f#ck is REALLY going on down there? Ahhhh!!!!!

Played to a room of quiet listeners, who I believe, never quite got over the fact that I am queer. They were respectful, and enjoyed the music, but I believe that they were in mild shock that I am so out. I think they kept thinking things to themselves like, "wow.. is she really a lesbian? I've never met a full blood lesbian before. Am I a lesbian? What do they DO in bed?"
It's OK people. Take a deep breath. You're still aloud to relax and enjoy yourselves, even if I am gay. You don't have to look so damn serious! LOL
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Piece of the Pie
I could please the people for a piece of the pie
Set my desires in a line
Learn to laugh through the lies
And curse the rough edged dark
I could become the girl they want to fuck
sell Gloria Steinem for a dwindling buck
Learn to use my mouth to suck
And awake from a dreamless night
And they say my lyrics are full of crass
I have to ask what’s up their ass
Cause if their shit smells like mine
Why do they all look shocked?
C’mon people awake from your sleep
Stop pretending we’re not in deep
Kiss the dark-faced witch and weep
And sing your dreams through dawn
This life cannot be ordered to go
A bucket of lies, and a happy meal prize
When did joy lose surprise
And get packaged in a pill?
How did this machine we all create
Destroy our skill to find a mate
All I want to do is masterbate
And hide between the walls
Why can’t we all just get along
Sings every singer in every song
And then backstage they smoke their bong
And kiss the girl they hate
C’mon people awake from your sleep
Stop pretending we’re not in deep
Kiss the dark faced witch and weep
And sing your dreams through dawn
And sing your dreams through dawn
And sing your dreams through dawn
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Oh so tired. Am sick with a sore threat and stuffed up head. Am in the old stomping ground of "Trouble", and I think the whole re-visiting has driven me sick and drained. Plus, it's the end of tour, and it's time for it to end. Had a show tonight, but no one really laughed at my jokes. Was my timing off? Were their brains off? They seemed to be pretty young, (like maybe high school age), and so maybe they just hadn't been exposed to Cabaret before, and silly storytelling, so maybe they just didn't know what to do with me. either way, all i want to do is curl up with re-runs of "six feet under", for weeks.
(but I have to mention that people were very kind, and responsive. They didn't laugh, but they truly enjoyed the music. Dave (organizer) bought me a tank of gas! And Cindy (musician who came to see me play), helped me with my gear, and was supportive as a mother!
goodnight,
athena
Friday, October 28, 2005
Here I am, after an awesome show in Lawrence. Man. I swear. I am totally getting better. Selling more CDs. Having more fun. If I follow my heart, and my joy, all will be glorious and great. Had the best tarot card reading ever today. Said that pleasure and success and happiness and in store for me, as long as I just follow my heart. And it said that I was going to be so happy in Berlin. Then come back to NYC, do my one woman cabaret "stories from the road" show, and experience love and pleasure. Usually I have totally crappy readings, with the tower card, the death card, the hermit card... seriously! Full of loneliness, pain and struggle. But amazing things are in store for me. Playful pleasurable things!
See you out there folks!
Athena
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Ahhhh.... Breathe. In and Out. This was one of those magical gigs. You could hear a pin drop int he audience. Les Lokey is a fantastic/considerate host/opener. There was fire dancing before and after the show. Les's music is brilliant energy. A pro performer. There was a lot of high quality people in the room, due to an excellent and detailed feature in the local Taos Newspaper. I loved this show. Why can't they all be more like this...?
I just love performing on the radio and TV. What a boost to the daily grind of seedy bars and drunken men trying to "convert" me back to straight-land.

Strange show, like the name suggests. Awesome amazing talent, but the room and vibe of the place was conducive to very loud talking and no one actually listening to the art (well there were 5 active listeners), but enjoying it as background murmur.... Hmmm... Definitely not the setting for what I do. But them's the breaks. You just never know how the vibe of fa night will pan out. But big thanks to DJ Carlisle McQueen for gathering all the grrls.



I hiked down and back up the Canyon at a quick pace. Felt so strong. Like if there was a war, I would be one of the few survivors. The layers of rock in the canyon represent thousands and thousands of years. It goes back to a time before there was any life on Earth, when the planet was similar to Mars in chemical make-up. A human life is barely even visible as a layer in the rocks. We get so wrapped up in our drama and self-destruction, as a species. But none of it really matters. If we screw up, the Earth will just swallow us up and go on to create new life. She is much more powerful than any of our angst-ridden thoughts. There is a river in the Canyon that the local Natives traditionally would cast the ash of their deceased. I want to be cremated, and cast there, when I pass. When you are in the Canyon, you feel that death is not tragic or terrible, but a sad, natural and necessary part of life and time. And it is an honor to be part of such an ancient and sacred cycle.
Monday, October 24, 2005

Here I am, performing as a guest musician on Q-TV's Q-Live. Funny, I just look at this picture and think, "I am so fat!". L.A. does something strange to you. Makes you feel like you are not thin enough, blond enough, and non-chalante enough. But anyhow, despite the ridiculous standards that screams out of every L.A. sidewalk, I had a great time getting my hair & make-up done by pros, eating peanut butter & crackers from the craft table, and having quick-witted intimate banter with the crew. (Isn't it always that way with crew?)
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
So much has happened. It feels like I haven't written in forever! I will write soon and catch up. I am now in Albuquerque. Other end of the universe, for a grrl like me, from Canada. So grateful to have a couch to sleep on, as I spent the past two nights in my car. Which was great for the privacy. But a little nerve-wracking. I hiked down the Grand Canyon! I am stroooong! I am toooough! I got that sense of peace and of being a small part in a great and wonderful cycle of nature... will tell more tomorrow. oh! and i got proposed to in San Francisco! I'll tell more tomorrow!
Athena
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Just got in. Feels great to be in an urban/gay mecca. Can't wait to go on adventurous walks.
am so tired.
drove all day from eugene. i did a new thing and took a rider with me. a rider is someone who needs a ride, and splits gas. I met him through craigslist. He is a very interesting guy. a little odd. unique. We had great conversation, though it was stressful, as i don't think we ever quite trusted each other. and yet, we are both nomads and truly understood each other.
so tired. don't even want to go to bed...
athena
Monday, October 10, 2005
always, there is so much drama.
played eugene, oregon tonight. lovely show. complete with a touch of drama. but thanks to tom from ginger hustlers, it was overal a nice experience. and big thanks to my friend sara who really got a bunch of her friends out.
i've had such drama here in eugene... don't really want to go into details. but i do want to say that at one point i found myself stranded with no place to crash for the night. i was in the middle of the saturday market in eugene. it was raining pretty steadily. i just stood there, at a loss for what to do.
A beautiful young man began talking to me and offered his home. he was one of those people that you instantly trust and want to be your friend and can't wait to hug. I went over to his place. got fed. got a beautiful massage (he's a professional masseuse), and had nice, interesting, drama-free conversation. i felt we all really connected.
him and the awesome ginny (who he lives with) came to my show and sat with wide eyes and ears perked. love those two.
... it's just so funny cause i'm in the business of people. the business of people with no profits. so there is soo much drama and egos and i am always in this awkward position of imposing on people for a place to crash. Some see it as supporting the arts. some see it as an imposition. some see it as an opportunity to make a new friend. and you never know, till your suitcase is unpacked, how it's going to feel.
i'm in the business of the kindness of strangers.
such an interesting sociological experiment.
i can report, from the front lines, that there is a lot of violence in our culture. Patriarchy is alive and well. And sometimes you get along with people. And sometimes you don't. And you can't force that. And ignorance often becomes hurtful. people often fear what they don't understand. who, really, understands a travelling musician? who understands a smart business woman? only a select few, with complex backgrounds that create complex minds. or, there are those, i believe, who are simply born with an open, loving soul.
but of course it's not just travelling musicians that are great mysteries to most. it's almost anyone who doesn't fit in the box. maybe you were born in Africa, but you're a white man who likes to wear skirts. maybe you're half black, half white but you look indian, and you recently dropped out of college to care for your dying mother. maybe you can never quite squeeze yourself into any one particular gender.
lets see... what would fix all this...
open minds & a little more benefit of the doubt.
listening...
if we could all just listen a little more to each other..
oh - and one more thing - people totally need to give up their sense of rules and order. there are so many secret rules and people need to chill a little, and take time out to REALLY COMMUNICATE.
yeah. somthing like that.
goodnight ya'll.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
So often, I would compromise my own sense of self, in order to feel connected to others. In other words, "(s)he's not making me feel uncomfortable, I'm just too uptight... Or I'm reading into it... Or maybe I don't know anything about people and I need to learn from him/her... yadda yadda yadda."
No. What if I'm actually right? Or, what if I acted on the premise that I am right? And of course, sometimes we are wrong about people and read into them. But truly. This is not my problem. My problem is that I constantly think it's my problem that I am uncomfortable. (this is from growing up with psychologists as parents and being over analyzed. Add in traumatic events as a child, and bingo - you've got ever present self-doubt).
but what if I trust, love and believe my instinct? What if I navigate my way through people and life using all my powers of instinct?
I think that, in time, I would find myself surrounded by loving people. And, in turn, perhaps better able to tolerate those who are slightly hurtful, as being more aware means I can protect myself better. And thus, be free to enjoy them a bit.
It is important to hide some things from most people.
....I think.
I think this helps build tolerance.
What an amazing complex organism we live in, on, through, and with.
the only way, that I can figure, to live as beautifully as possible, is to use our instinct to sniff our way through the complexities.
...sniff our way through the complexities.
complexities.
grey tones.
who ever said anything was easy? Or simple?
no no...
complex.
everything is so complex.
and yet, it could all be as simple as a child's scream.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Get your head out of your ass you stupid bitch. The only people left there were a bunch of welfare thugs. We have been working for years to pay taxes to support these people so they can sit on their ass and do nothing. The more of them that get screwed the less we will have to pay. What have any of those people ever done for you besides rob you when you go to mardi gras. For the last time take me off of your mailing list and fuck the Dalai Lama you freak bitch. I wish you would move there. The Lama would bend you over and ass fuck you like the hippie freak you are. Take me off your mailing list or I will show up at one of your gay shows and fuck you up. Just take me off of your list you stupid bitch.
And P.S. - I never received a request from him to unsubscribe. I wrote back with this:
Are you retarded? All you have to do is click unsubscribe at the bottom of the email. And, in the future, don’t sign up for email lists you don’t wish to be on, you freak. Get it? In life, do what you want. Obviously, you signed up for something you don’t want… you must be retarded! LOL
If he writes back, I'll post it again. If it becomes annoying, I'll block his email.
PPS - Anyone who ever says that what I do is fun or glamorous or fabulous.. think again. This email is not, honestly, new to me, or a shocker. Being an artist who is feminist, alone and an out lesbian really inspires, at times, the violence that lurks just beneath the surface to rear it's ugly head. Now maybe, people will understand why I feel vulnerable, and REALLY appreciate their positive feedback! (sometimes people look at me funny when I smile real wide and say "THANK YOU" and "DO YOU MEAN IT?" after a compliment) And maybe people will understand why I'm not always smiling, or easy-going... even though I love people, joy is my natural state, and am a sweet person (my friends say I'm strong on the outside, and a marshmallow on the inside). I love making art and speaking my truth. And providing a voice for all the people who's points of views aren't expressed through CNN, or MTV, or the latest sitcom. But man, it ain't pretty to rock the boat. It ain't easy.
Hi everybody,
I had a beautiful night tonight in Portland. Cyrstin Byrd is such a sweet heart. Allison Wesley is a cutie. I've been staying at Lara Michell's house and been getting amazing sleep. And Lara and I have been truly connecting and having lovely intimate talks. The audience was fantastic. They listened, they cheered, they sang along with gusto during "I want to f#ck all day", they bought CDs, they licked my feet (just kidding on that one). But it was a great night.
I feel good. Relaxed. Loved. Connected.
I've already made my decision about Berlin. I'm going there in December. I will go for maybe just one month... but if I love it I'll stay. If not, I'll come back to NYC and build up a private teaching practice. Maybe I'll look into booking some shows out there now... Or maybe not. Could be fun to just go and dick around (I mean cunt around?) a bit. Berlin on the brain.
I love watching sitcoms. The Cosby Show. Roseanne.
Just thought I'd share.
LOL
Athena
Monday, October 03, 2005
Ahhh.. so nice to be on the west coast. Very appreciative audience, except for when they got restless near the end. Sold a few CDs and t-shirts. Had a GREAT time sharing the bill with the band Fiasco. They are totally pro and have a good feeling/unique/beautiful sound. Lee Oscar (famed harmonica player and inventer - played with Jimi Hendrix, War, Santana etc.) sat in with Fiasco and we all went for shots afterwards. Great night!
Sunday, October 02, 2005
It feels good to be back in the u.s.a.
But it also feels more violent.
Feels like I can get more bang for my buck.
Feels like I can stretch out, breathe, be myself, and not follow so many rules. I always feel there are so many silent rules in canada. And if you break them, that's when Canadians get REALLY nasty. Yes, it's true. Canadians can get as nasty as Americans. Sorry to break it to ya...
But I also feel like a foreigner in the U.S.. I don't fit in. Always, Canada looms lovingly in the back of my mind. And yet, in Canada, the U.S. shadows as well.
Canada is a warm blanket that squeezes you so tight, you don't know who you are.
Welcome to Vancouver Island! Ahhhh... the sweet calming smell of all pervading progressiveness. Had some absolutely lovely/darling shows in Duncan and Victoria. Not huge turn-outs. But QUALITY, MY FRIENDS, QUALITY! Ahhh. What a gorgeous island. What sweet awesome alternative types.
Here's me and Val (good friend from high school) running towards a blimp we found in the middle of a field. This is a after the show in Victoria.
The next day, the show in Vancouver.. was... well... OK. I followed a loud band, the sound system was not good for a solo act... BUT, I had some awesome fans there, and enjoyed myself, and hung out with Kim from the Painting Daisies the next day (and her film-girlfriend Kelly). Overal, it wasn't half bad. But, it went over the edge when the producer of the show thought I was criticizing her and went into a blind rage. I tried to reassure and soothe her and compliment her, but she just raged and used many swear words so i walked out. Out in the parking lot, her friends told me that everyone knows that you can't take that girl too seriously. OK. I somehow walked heart first into the eye of dyke drama 101. The whole thing was actually kind of funny and over the top. So I just concentrated on having a good time with the fans and friends there, and avoided the fire. I have yet to have a positive experience in Vancouver...
What's so funny, is that I am spending most of my time in bars. Bar culture. Drunks, addicts, drama queens... It is sooo not my scene. I mean what do I expect? How dare I bring my art to the local hangout where people are really just trying to get drunk and make sorry attempts to get laid? I mean, what do I expect? I'm in their turff, and imposing on their good time. How dare I make them think? Or stop to listen?
I've got to get out of bar culture. I've got to get out of North America!
So all these thoughts are streaming through my head...The hecklers in Regina, the amazing intimate show in Red Deer, the yucky-lonely show in Lethbridge, the beautiful-small shows in Calgary, the awesome-packed-magical show at the Grinder, the booker at the sidetrack who keeps emailing me how important he is and how baaad I am (I've had to block his email)... Man, the prairies are always incredibly intense and volatile. I always have some of my best and worst shows in Western Canada. And I am RELIEVED to be out! Too stressful! So much cowboy machismo that I somehow threaten with my presence and music..
So I'm driving through the Rockies, my blood surging with these intense emotions... And suddenly, none of it really matters. The mountains are enormous, gorgeous, awe-inspiring... How can these natural works of art exist among such human violence and drama? How do we still deserve this natural masterpiece, this healing balm, this ancient glory?
And I quickly remember that all this Prairie drama doesn't really have anything to do with me. It's all experiences washing over my body like waves. And I really don't have to try to keep any of its waters in my palm. It's just a particular part of the world in a particular era reacting to a particular woman alone, strong, and unique. A particular woman doing a particular type of music that is like Chinese to many prairie ears.
And all of this gets me thinking about Europe. How would Europe react to my singing, my lyrics, my chords... How does Europe treat the artist?
Saturday, September 24, 2005
I performed with Jasmine Whenham (gorgeous-music & words) at the Ironwood. Small turn-out, but receptive audience. We had one of the best sound engineers, Marco Levesque, working the board. It was wonderful to get a warm hug from him, and work with him again. I had a blast. I especially enjoyed that Michelle came from Edmonton to see the show. Her support, loud laughs, and beaming face sent me into the stratospheres of joy and confidence. It's just like my therapist says, "What makes things difficult Athena, is that you don't have a solid support system around you. I bet that as soon as you get yourself surrounded by good people you can trust, you will beam with joy. And that's not something you can force. You just have to wait for it to happen naturally." I can be in the depths of "jeeper creeper" burn-out, and then spend 2 days with wonderful people, and the world rights herself again.
The show at Karma, the next night was PURE MAGIC. It evolved into an open mic with a clown performance, and spontaneous musical performances by Wilson & Jasmine Whenham. Thank you to the brave dykes and radicals who came out that night to boldly laugh when I sang my most honest and outrageous songs. yes! Thank you Calgary!
Edmonton - Sidetrack Cafe & The Druid
I had 2 shows that night. One at the Sidetrack and the other at The Druid. It ended up being a crazy night, full of ridiculous unprofessionalism on the part of the Sidetrack Cafe which later developped into border-abusive behavior by the booker. Ah well. Such is the crazy-unhealthy music industry. But the later show at the Druid was beautiful and drama free. And much fun to hang with Chris & Michelle Boudream & Jadon & others! Michelle did a kick-ass set at the Druid, and got asked to come back as a feature. So that made the whole night worth it. The show at the Sidetrack had wonderful audience-performer rapport. Beautiful. The show at the Druid has a rowdy-Western-Canada racous crowd which I successfully tamed, after much hard work. Jadon (Michelle's fiancee-above) is a beautiful man I got to know during my stay in Edmonton. One of those rare caring, soft, nurturing, talented, good-energy men you just want to bear-hug.
Monday, September 19, 2005
Already I feel 7 miles better. Sometimes you connect with people, and sometimes you don't. Well, i think me and michelle boudreau definitely connect. Was freaked out to come back to Edmonton, to the city where I was sexually assaulted last year, after having had my re-initiatiation into Prairie culture at O'Hanlon's in Regina. Felt so angry and on edge on my drive over here. So alone and misunderstand. Who in the world really gets me? Understands where I am coming from? Is willing to really to take my word for it, when I speak from my own experience?
But then I get to Michelle's and right away she understands the vibe at O'Hanlons. She used to live in Regina and agrees within a heartbeat about the scene there, and counters with numerous anectodes about its effect on her and her music. It's just too much to process all this on my own.
And I just feel instantly comfortable here, in her spacious wooded house, with her lovely fiancee.
OK. Going to bed. Thank you world for showing me someone who understands.
I wish I could get a little stronger, to the point where I really believe myself, and don't need validation. But then again, I am human, and don't really have a good support system right now.. so what do i expect of myself?
Really, I am human.
sleep tight,
athena
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Just what the doctor ordered. A nice gig, in a nice cafe atmosphere, with good lighting and people of all generations. Not too much drinking, and a nice appreciative crowd. Clean cut music. Good for the body and soul for one night. nice nice nice... (I hear my grade 5 english teacher reprimending me: "Nice is saying nothing. What does nice mean? Find another adjective!")
Rock n roll for the kids! This was a wonderful experience. They turned off the lights in the gym, set up fancy sound sensitive lights, and the kids were clapping along and super attentive for their own private rock n roll show. It was super fun! My favorite is always the Q & A afterwards. Question of the day (from a little 5 yr. old boy): "I want to have a pillow fight with you." Need I say more?
Here's me working too damn hard to soothe the audience... It's OK... it's OK. This is just music. Creativity. Honesty. Me being strong and unique is really not a direct threat to your sense of self...
Our Greatest Fear
Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?You are a child of God.Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinkingso that other people won't feel insecure around you.We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.It is not just in some; it is in everyone.And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously giveother people permission to do the same.As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others.
Marianne Williamson, from her book "A Return to Love"
Friday, September 16, 2005
Had the weirdest show tonight. I was actually heckled for the first time, ever in my life. And, in general, the atmosphere was very noisy, jocky and sexist!!! sexist sexist sexist! As soon as I got up to sing, people (large mainstream-looking men) got up to leave the room. The people who came to see me (funky artsy types) seemed to be a little afraid to really enjoy themselves with the over-dominating sexist presence. I was booed and heckled. I actually felt like I was hated. It felt extremely high school, when being mere female meant an invisible razor would prod your skin if you dared to deviate from the box. And there I was, a woman on stage tonight, singing out of the box - and Wham! patriarchy hit me in the face.
The funny thing is, that Canadians are always going on about how backwards America is, and how forward-thinking Canadians are... But I have never felt so hated and unappreciated. And looking back on my experience growing up in Canada, there was a constant barrage of sexist violent undertones. But anytime you try to speak out against it (like even tonight), people would undermine it and say, "no..no.. not sexist... they were just drinking, having a good time. They liked you. It's just you don't look like your promo and you know, I have a problem with your style and.." OK motherfucker. Step back before I punch you in the face. I had to fucking leave that bar. Whatever. Not sexist my ass. When Dave Taylor sang, everyone listened and flooded the room. Before I even opened my mouth, people began talking and leaving. Plus, I got booed! And big football type men yelled things like "stop singing!".
You know, I am always ranting about how city folk have to stop their snobbery against rural folk. I clearly see the prejudice that urbanites can impose on smaller cities & towns. But if cowboy culture wants urban respect, they've got to stop acting like 12 year old boys who have never seen a woman before, or experienced art before. Really, you are making it hard for me to carry the torch for your cause against urban prejudice.. This was just too much!!!
But it's all OK. I love Dave Taylor. He's a great musicians. And of course, I had some true fans in the audience and sold a couple CDs. But fuck. Wake up Athena. You are in cowboy country and it's going to be a rough ride. Last time I was here, I got sexually assaulted. So watch out. Here it comes. By the time I'm in Vancouver I'll be safe. Hold on tight to your saddle girl, cause it's going to be one hell of a ride.
(I have to say that I also sometimes love playing cowboy culture.. when the grrls come out to play. They are loud, appreciative, and DYING for some feminist joy). So it's always an intense mix.
No rest for the hard-working anarcho-feminist musician.
I'm just trying to find joy, hope and peace in my life. And man, here I am saddling through cowboy culture. It just never ends, does it, for the life of the touring cabaret-punk-pop-artist?
Peace,
Athena
Thursday, September 15, 2005
The Cultural Exchange - Regina, SK
One of those magical magical shows. I started out thinking, "I hate my music. It is filled with pain and trauma and I just can't stand it anymore. It's re-traumatizing me!" But then I had one of those "you-can-hear-a-pin-drop" audiences... and all is redeemed! They want to hear about pain! About suffering. And they laughed and laughed at my jokes! Yipee! And what a pleasure to share the stage with such honest songstresses as Jennifer Gibson & Catherine!
On the top is me & Jennifer. She let me stay at her clean beautiful house. I ate her cheese & balogna and watched cable TV and felt human again. And look at her! What a hot hot butch! Yum... But her dog hates anything on 2 feet that isn't Jennifer. Still, by the end, the dog was looking at me with sadness, not hate. I think that was an improvement... or something...
Bit of a strange night. Felt like I shocked everybody. My work is filled with so much pain and trauma, it seems. Sometimes feels like it re-traumatizes me even. A woman came up to me after the show and said, "Take care of yourself." God, is it that obvious?
What... Should I just quick and go into trauma-singing-rock-star-rehab?
Or should I just stick it out till I get in front of a more saavy audience?
Yeah. I'll stick with the later.
And maybe add a few more uplifting, reassuring lullaby-type songs to my set, to soothe myself and some easily disturbed members of the audience...
Monday, September 05, 2005

Here I am in the middle of the cornfields in Sidney, MI; performing and giving a workshop at Montcalm Community College. It was one of those cafeteria gigs, where you have to compete with food. And man, I wouldn't want to do that!!! Tough competition. So lots of noise, and very little attentiveness. But there were some very interested students and the workshop afterwards in the barn on "Facing the Bogeyman: Performance Anxiety and Following Your Dreams" went AMAZING! I love teaching workshops to college kids & adults!
At night, there are no city lights, no traffic, no cell phone reception. Just squeaking windmills, century old barns, and yawning spirits soaring through star-scattered skies....
Sunday, September 04, 2005
If you can breathe in the present, the gifts are boundless. Finding your belly is the hardest thing.
Beautiful houses in St. John's
Pictures do not convey the colorful, quirky, cheerful nature of local houses. Everybody paints their house bright blues, reds, yellows, pinks...
O.K., Have you noticed I am starting to have fun with photoshop... mmm... But check this guy out. Doesn't he look hot in one of my tees?
Friday, August 19, 2005

OK. tonight was insane. As soon as I walk into the bar, the owner's hands are all over me. As the night progresses, I learn that EVERY ONE OF THE PERFORMER'S has been just as gropped and grossed out as me. So Liz (who we are staying with - musician extraordinaire), makes an announcement from stage about the innapropriate groping. The owner comes out, starts fighting with her, PUSHING HER, and the whole thing escalates. And next thing you fucking know, the gig is cancelled. So we move it to another venue, where we do a couple songs each. But i'm bummed cause we missed out on a lot of money we could have made that night. But you know, KEEP YOUR HANDS TO YOURSELVES BOYS!
But anyways, here we are, after moving the night to "The Ship Pub". To the left of me is warrior Liz.
:) Athena
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Took a break from my eat/movie/sleep routine to check out the live music in the lounge. These old round men with thick Newfie accents (think irish/scottish/canadian sing-song lilt) were playing traditional Island songs and telling long winded Newfie stories that ended with a dirty joke at the end. Something about old men masterbating or some such semi-shocking punchline. It was fabulous. They made an annoucement from stage that I am from NYC and will be playing some shows in St. John's. Well, of course, everyone wanted to hear me play, so I borrowed Addie's guitar and sang a few tunes. It was a beautiful experience. Trapped on a boring 14 hour ferry ride, the audiences had no choice but to be incredibly attentive, appreciative and generous. They flipped me a few coin, discussed the meanings in my songs, and requested ditty after ditty. Ah... Welcome to Newfoundland my friend.
Enjoy.
Partying after the show at O'Briens. The girl on the left was hilarious. She was saying things like, "Well, I guess when you're touring like that, you really turn to each other. (giggle) You must come to REALLY depend on one another. (gigle giggle) Nothing wrong with that... Nothing wrong with that (evil cackle)."
nope. nothing wrong with that. I expect to see her at Gay Pride in about 5 years. See ya soon sistah!
Here I am with sweet Jerry (bartender) at O'Briens. As soon we walked in we were informed that all these guys were coming to see us 'cause, no offense, but we are like sooo hot. But it's funny cause our poster in the guy's bathroom got ripped and pissed on. And don't worry, cause they won't tell any of the guys where we are staying tonight, cause they sure have been asking...
uh... yeah... ok... did i just enter beavis & butthead heaven or what?
But it was a cool gig. Jerry is a sweet person, and the other bands were very attentive and... well... the night was not without drama.




























































































































